Ignorance is bliss.
I never try to understand it before as I always worshipped extra information. Manipulating the information I have to my own benefit is always my aim, my passion, and my ultimate way of life. I always regard the thirst of new knowledge is my strength. Now, I suddenly realise that it could also be my undoing.
I can almost hear Heath's famous saying : Oh! Those (teenager's) raging hormones. He is so hilarious yet so true. Teenagers let their hormones control them. Every actions done by teenagers, are instructed of proteins. It is not always wrong to follow your hormones, but following your hormones implies that you are not thinking clearly, therefore those actions often results in catastrophe.
It's true that I carelessly got trapped and controlled by the hormones. There was a girl. She blew off my mind like a dynamite. I wasn't conscious about it, but i realised that i always go goo-goo gaa-gaa over her. Maybe because she has the pheromones that attract me. Who knows......
Before i knew it, i started constantly researching about her through every way, every channel i could. I swear it was sub-conscious until i realise what i have been doing. It never happen to me before. I gain a lot of information and insights about her. She, already seems to be the perfect girl(maybe except her height) on my first encounter, became more and more perfect as i uncover more things about her. I realised that she became an important part of my thought, my action and sometimes, my speech.
Today i did that again. I found her blog. I was like Oh my gosh, i uncover the "holy grail" of my quest to discover her and what made her into who she is now[sounds wrong, Anyway...]. I found that she is more than who i thought she is. She is just way above me. I don't even think i am worthy to even get to know her. She is so amazing. So wholesome. So wonderful, glorious, elegant.......[ran out of adjectives]. I suddenly felt confused, depressed at the same time. I question myself why, why did i feel that way.... She is just a friend, that's all. then, i found a logical explanation of my emotions. I am in love. This time, its true....
I regretted knowing that. I regretted not taking life seriously. regretted knowing the truth. Its the first time i truly agree that "Ignorance is bliss"