Monday, November 5, 2007

A letter from a friend

Looking into my perpetually empty pigeon hole after lunch today gave me a pleasant surprise. It seems that it is not so perpetually empty after all. I have a letter!

From the envelope and the handwriting, I recognized the sender's warmth and childlike playfulness harbored within the envelope. I smiled to myself. I see, she refuse to wait for me to return home. She is impatient. I guess it's all my fault that I left our friendship floating in the empty sea. But I did left an address. I guess that's how the letter reach my pigeon hole.

Reading the letter made me smile even more. She hasn't change, still the same as before. Clueless and innocent. She lamented that I did not send her any letter  and that I only communicate to her through the Internet. The reason she prefer writing letters instead of emailing or IM-ing is that she is lazy and its inconvenient for her to go online. I don't know what to say. That's the exact reason for me not to write letters.

With the letter, she attached a badge of which she called it a pin-tag. With the badge, is a bible verse. John 3:16. A verse I am very familiar with. One of the first verse I knew. A verse I recently talk to Fei Fan about. Amazed.

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Silly child, why would I hate a gift from a friend?

Sunday, November 4, 2007

What's Next?

I have been thinking a lot lately. About the future, and what it holds for me. Will i be the guy who invented cure for all incurable disease? Will i be a groundbreaker that sets humanity into a higher path? I am not sure. All i am sure about is I want to be in gods plan. Whatever is is plan for me I will follow. But, what does He wants me to be? That is the question... Will I be the salvation for human race? or Is it that I will just be the butterfly that contributes to the creation of a tornado in the chaos theory? I guess, for now, I can't do anything to get the answer but to wait and see.

Was chatting with Sharyl the other day. We promised to meet up in 30 years time, a November. I mentioned to her that if I achieved my ambition, I will not be hard to find. I pray that it will come true. Not just because I'd love to meet Sharyl in 30 years time, but also because I love life, I love earth as it is. The cold hard truth is we won't know what will happen in the future. Only god knows.

It comes down to a conclusion that our view to everything is very limited. God is always the answer.

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God, can I ask you a question? What is beyond this beautiful sky? If its the pearly gates of the heaven, what's beyond that?

Friday, November 2, 2007

Hi Again

I cant believe i actually got under fire for not posting. I suppose that happens because either:
  1. People loves my blog, OR,
  2. People loves and cares about me
[JUST KIDDING =.=] :)

Anyway, i will post today no matter what. Poor bloggie, got neglected for so long.

Soon it will be the end of the year. "End" is a two faced word. It can be a blessing or a disaster. Its a blessing when bad things end; its a disaster when good things end. Everybody understand why God let the bad things to end. But have you ever wonder why God actually allow good things to end? It is actually pretty simple. Without a bad things, good things will seem normal. God does not want people to take everything thats good for granted. Therefore, good things have to end for bad things to happen to actually make good things good. A bit cheem? Ok. Bad things serves as a relative comparison for good things. Just like how the simpson movies where the corrupted politician arrange the soldiers around the dome. "100 strong men and 100 weak men", "The weaker men is to make the strong men look stronger". Lol. The movie amused me, at the same time, i picked up a lot of lessons from it.

Ok... Deviated too much from the topic. The point of describing the word end to such an extent is to give you all a better idea of the overwheming period i've experienced for the past seven days. Lets start from the release of the promo results. I did not do quite bad. Just managed to scrape through the requirement to keep my scholarship. 17 of my fellow comrades were not that lucky however. They got called by the teacher mentors and Ms Doreen Lim for scholarship review. Was brooding over the fate one particular friend tho. A very precious friend to me. Things hasn't been great for him for the whole year. Bad things kept happening to him. I felt very helpless, not knowing what to do, i realise i can only surrender to God, and pray that He will bring my friend light, the silver lining behind the cumulonimbus.

Aside from the bad news, we have some good news. I've finished two paper of my 7 a level subject!!! Hooray!!!
For weeks, not sleeping well has taken toll on me. I've lost weight. Tremendously. For a person whose weight is relatively constant since form 1, it has been a scary experience. 55 kg.. I don;t know what to say. Thank god that PW is over. Although I think i screwed my OP, But i am trully relieved that the burden is lightened. I can finally sleep properly. Chinese AO was quite ok. Expected harder questions tho.

CANT GO BACK THIS HOLIDAYS!!!!

I guess this is the price you have to pay for joining a high profile CCA. Will be spending the rest of the holidays practicing carols, CIP and study. After thinking it out, it is actually not that bad. Tomorrow i will plan the detail of my holidays. Dont wanna spend the holidays playing DOTA.

Oh yea. the J2 are having their A levels now!!! Lets pray for them, and may the god be with them all the time.




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